Isn't it strange when someone suddenly isn't there any more, when they are not there where you always imagined them to be. Did you ever think about them, if they were happy or if they were depressed. Even if you didn't see them for weeks, months, or even a year, you just knew they were there. And you loved them because they were family even though you never actually had long conversations. Their presence was enough. It's just strange how people leave and never come back.
I do very much hope that even in your last years you found some happiness, and that you weren't in pain all the time. That you didn't drink your pain away and even when you did you had good moments with your friends. Farewell. ♥